Free bird

Over the past few days the feeling of being stuck in a trap that refuses to let me go has become stronger and stronger. It feels like I am stuck in a vortex where people are pushing me to my limit and I don't know what to do, who to believe and who to let close to me. Life is supposed to be simple and easy. So why ans what does it make it so complicated? Is it greed? Hate? Lust? Desire? Jealousy? I wish I could understand but I don't. I want to fly free like a bird that has no worries, fearlessly slicing though the air like there is no tomorrow. Spreading my wings and feeling the wind pass through the outspread feathers making me one with creation. How I long for a life well lived, with no stress and tension, no worries and fear. I hate the fear of the unknown. It claws at my soul and makes me want to run. Run away from this life and start again. To right all the wrongs so that the mind can be free and at peace.

That is the only thing that the heart desires.

The mind boggles

My mind is a jumble of words that are bursting to come out in a flow of words that may or may not be understood, but when I actually start, well that is the time everything goes blank and it seems that all emotions and thoughts are forgotten and I stare blankly at the screen trying to understand where to start from and what to write. The mind is a confusion of thoughts and ideas with stories from the past and present that are bursting to come forth and be known to all. It is life itself that brings about the randomness of ideas that make us believe what we want and how we want it to be. so you see … to be or not to be … that it definitely the question.